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Got the last of the descing done on the boardwalk. Once it's glanced over, the extra piece will go in. It's good, I think. Not spectacular, but better than merely okay.
Hope I'm right. ;)
The beads are sorted. Some of them, anyway. More than were sorted.
I've quit staffing at Endless MUSH. It's been this very quiet place. The Goddess poked me on ICQ because I had lots of waiting mail. I logged on. I realized I hadn't been on since Monday; I had 8 waiting messages. Four inspections, two link-opens, and two notes from the goddess, one about a build matter, one asking whether I still had time for this, and saying players were starting to question.
I was just tired. I could find or make the time. But what would I have to give up to find that time? I'd rather put my time into Ashes, into beading, into myself, into the things that have more consistently rewarded my efforts. I poured a lot of effort into Endless, and it has been consistently okay...but my time is not all that free these days, and now, now that it grows active...it's too much for me.
I could probably get a lot back from it. I will definitely continue to play there. Probably as intermittently as I have all along, I fear, but I like the place.
But I don't have the energy for staffing there. The decision's not quite irrevocable, but it's close - I'm sure Lithium would wonder why I quit, then came back. I've already sent @mail to transfer our embassy on Online Gaming Resource to someone still on staff. I've cleared my mail-queue on Endless, and wiped all my attributes except a generic note that I'd gone on leave and to direct issues to Lithium.
Normally, I don't burn my bridges that thoroughly. Normally, however, my character object isn't a reusable item. Since I was wiz-flagged and the God's time is also at a premium due to real life, it is. Which is cool; I was actually the one who suggested it, as a solution to the problem.
I didn't stop caring about Endless. But I stopped trying to give it so much of my heart, maybe. I wanted it to matter to others. And it does now. Ironically, after the lack-of-mattering had caused me to grow tired about the whole matter, had caused it to matter far less to me.
I loved A Time Endless. I loved the stories told there. Somehow, I thought we'd make something - if not the same place, of course never that, but something similar enough. And maybe we will.
But I won't be staff. I'll be a player. And I'm glad of that, though I wasn't sure if I would be or not when I made the decision. Hopefully I'll still be glad tomorrow, but I think so.
And meanwhile, I'd better get some rest. I have an early interview tomorrow. And before rest, I'd better close all these little containers of beads, or I will kick one over in the morning.
Hope I'm right. ;)
The beads are sorted. Some of them, anyway. More than were sorted.
I've quit staffing at Endless MUSH. It's been this very quiet place. The Goddess poked me on ICQ because I had lots of waiting mail. I logged on. I realized I hadn't been on since Monday; I had 8 waiting messages. Four inspections, two link-opens, and two notes from the goddess, one about a build matter, one asking whether I still had time for this, and saying players were starting to question.
I was just tired. I could find or make the time. But what would I have to give up to find that time? I'd rather put my time into Ashes, into beading, into myself, into the things that have more consistently rewarded my efforts. I poured a lot of effort into Endless, and it has been consistently okay...but my time is not all that free these days, and now, now that it grows active...it's too much for me.
I could probably get a lot back from it. I will definitely continue to play there. Probably as intermittently as I have all along, I fear, but I like the place.
But I don't have the energy for staffing there. The decision's not quite irrevocable, but it's close - I'm sure Lithium would wonder why I quit, then came back. I've already sent @mail to transfer our embassy on Online Gaming Resource to someone still on staff. I've cleared my mail-queue on Endless, and wiped all my attributes except a generic note that I'd gone on leave and to direct issues to Lithium.
Normally, I don't burn my bridges that thoroughly. Normally, however, my character object isn't a reusable item. Since I was wiz-flagged and the God's time is also at a premium due to real life, it is. Which is cool; I was actually the one who suggested it, as a solution to the problem.
I didn't stop caring about Endless. But I stopped trying to give it so much of my heart, maybe. I wanted it to matter to others. And it does now. Ironically, after the lack-of-mattering had caused me to grow tired about the whole matter, had caused it to matter far less to me.
I loved A Time Endless. I loved the stories told there. Somehow, I thought we'd make something - if not the same place, of course never that, but something similar enough. And maybe we will.
But I won't be staff. I'll be a player. And I'm glad of that, though I wasn't sure if I would be or not when I made the decision. Hopefully I'll still be glad tomorrow, but I think so.
And meanwhile, I'd better get some rest. I have an early interview tomorrow. And before rest, I'd better close all these little containers of beads, or I will kick one over in the morning.
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