Can things please get better from here?

[kyrielle]

With all due respect to September, it has sucked.

Today, I went in to get the permanent crown put on my root canal. And for the first time ever, the lab had produced a crown that could not be made to fit. Yes indeedy, I came home with a fresh temporary, after going through another imprint process to send a fresh attempt to the lab. (And after having the tooth further ground down in an effort, ultimately futile, to make the crown they'd produced fit. He came very close, but it just wasn't gonna work.)

On the plus side, we got some fillings done. I now only have one more filling to be done. And this time the anesthesia did its job. The appointment was, pain-wise, a big nothing, including the un-anesthetized parts (such as attempting to seat the crown). It was just tedious as all get-out and ultimately fruitless as far as the crown.

Sadly, it probably helped my perspective a lot that we just had to have Babe put down yesterday. Dental aggravation that didn't cause actual pain was so not high on my list of woes, today, even as it was happening. I miss my cuddle-kitty. Though I can still, now, close my eyes and see her lifting her head just so, feel her fur under my hand. It helps. I know that memory will fade in time, not to where I don't remember it but to where I can't reconstruct it so perfectly. Memories do that to me. But hopefully the worst of the sorrow will fade faster, because right now it's like she's there, trying to comfort me. Maybe she is.

Apple is sleeping on the bean-bag chair right now (I'm working from home: my boss suggested it since I had a dental appointment over here in the middle of the day). She's still no lap-cat or cuddle-cat, but she's mostly feeling pettable today, without all the flirting and dodging she usually employs. That helps too. Periodically I'll lean back and just scritch her for a bit.

Kitty yin-yang icon because kitty hugs make life better.

Comments

[lady-of-mists.livejournal.com]

I hope that October is much better. This year's just been crazy in my opinion.

[mdlbear]

"...it's like she's there, trying to comfort me. Maybe she is."

Oh, Gods, yes! I know that feeling very well. Gotten me through many a dark time, it has. May your sorrow fade swiftly, and the comforting spirit remain.

[roadskoller.livejournal.com]

You've got too much emotional and physical tension going on.
Apple is going to be in your mind's eye for a long time. Relish the memories, even though they hurt.

[kyrielle]

Thank you. And yes, it has. :/

[kyrielle]

Thank you.

[kyrielle]

Thank you.

[retsuko.livejournal.com]

Your September definitely has been cheesegrater-on-the-soul quality. :( I'm betting that your October will be better.

*hugs*

[grey-lady.livejournal.com]

It's lovely to have such memories to comfort you.
*hugs*

[kyrielle]

*hugs* Thank you.

[kyrielle]

*hugs* Thank you.