I have no stamina.

I've only worked ten-hour days this week, and I feel so worn down and out of it. I have one coworker pulling an 80-hour week (I personally think he's nuts, and it is his first and maybe his last, and he did work Sat & Sun to do it)...and here I am whining about steady ten-hour days.

But, yes, I am whining. For all of that, I left at five yesterday (and then did some work at home). In some ways that was a mistake. There was a problem on 205 Northbound and I-5 south was backed up alllll the way to 217. I knew as soon as I was on the ramp that I should not have taken this route.

Once in it, of course, I was too stubborn to get out of it.

Yesterday was woefully hot. One huge advantage to work: air conditioning. Scott had the day off, and I think he regretted it by the time I got home, unfortunately. 90-degree days and houses without air conditioning go poorly. Although the downstairs wasn't too bad, it wasn't great either. Supposed to be a bit better today; I sure hope so.

Current weekend plans: If the weather is still no-rain for the weekend proper, I may seal the deck Friday night or Saturday morning. I have my doubts about this, the forecast keeps changing its mind about that whole "rain" thing. Japanese Gardens Saturday morning during the member-only hours, possibly a clothes store (I'd like a couple more business-type shirts that don't fry me, before I spend a week at a client site...). Home, and some work while at home. Sunday, visiting my parents (father's day, after all) and not sure what else. Probably more work. It's unfortunately a lot to be done.

Friday five.

1. How often do you do laundry? 1-4 times a week. Just sort of whenever the need hits and I feel up to it. (Why so varied? Sometimes all the laundry gets done "at once". Sometimes it gets done one load a night until we run out.)

2. What's in a typical wash load? Towels go together. Darks go together. Lights go together. Pants, shirts, socks, underthings. Whee.

3. Front or top loader? Powder or liquid detergent? Top loading, powder.

4. Do you use fabric softener in the rinse cycle? Nope. We do use dryer sheets.

5. Dryer or clothesline? Dryer. I'd like to get a line or something in the garage, though. I have some clothes I shouldn't be putting in the dryer.

*sigh* Perspective.

How is it I can get so spun out of control over issues, but it just takes a little to center me? Never mind, I know that one. How is it that I seem to forget it so often, when remembering it could let me center myself?

I got what I really needed: I got a list of priorities, so I don't feel like I'm guessing which way to jump. And now, I know that while I am not getting everything everyone wants done (yet) or even all the important stuff (yet), I am getting the stuff that most needs to be done, done.

It's still sunny out, but too washed-out to be really pretty. Which makes it very pleasant to be inside, in the air conditioning.

I've gotten a few things done that I needed to, not just at work but in other areas, to feel better about how I'm handling things. I really hate it when I get in these loops.

I'm also still not fond of noticing that work has eaten my life, but it hasn't entirely. My problem was that it's trying to and I feel guilty about not letting it.

I finally hauled out my "Don't Sweat the Small Stuff at Work" book again and, lo and behold, of the first six entries I glanced at (I've read them all before), I was violating five of them.

Go figure....

Much more cheerful, partly 'cause of that, partly 'cause some code problems are now fixed.

Wow. Okay, maybe I am productive.

I keep looking at how big a list "what I have to do" is. Well, the list of "what I did today (so far)" is pretty big too.

( The entire list.... )

I'm not done for the day, but I almost am. I'm keeping my list of what "must" be done today down so I can get home. I'll be back in tomorrow, unfortunately. I need to get the lab set up for testing a different site than it was, and I haven't had time today, and I don't want to stay that late tonight. It's needed by Monday, so tomorrow is fine. Plus it needs the code I still have to update one more program for....

( What remains to be done, today or tomorrow. )

So...a fair amount, but it really is doable. And I am getting stuff done. I look at all I have to do and freak, but what I have to do now is mostly manageable (now that my boss has come in and made sense of the whole mess by prioritizing).