Whee!

[kyrielle]

At work. Just want to note that I do NOT like the forecast for the
rest of this week. Planning to take my laptop home tonight, so I can
work from home if the weather they said we'll have tomorrow actually
shows up. I would normally do this when snow is forecast but now,
instead of a gentle sense of nervousness and an awareness that I stink
at driving in snow (c'mon, I grew up in Oregon!), I feel an outright
dread. Definitely better to take the laptop home.

On the other hand, when I left last night I was deeply puzzled by an
issue I was supposed to look into, and when I came in this morning,
the second or third place I looked held an "a-ha!" clue and now I can
make progress on it. That's a good start to the
day.

Comments

[roadskoller.livejournal.com]

Do you think you're getting a little more nervouse about bad weather because of your father's accident?
If you can work at home, you really should.

[kyrielle]

I have always been very timid about bad weather and worked from home in it. But I am getting more nervous about driving in general because of Dad's accident. He was a good driver and knew how to deal with icy roads (unlike me, he once lived in Michigan and Minnesota, and drove there - I lived in Iowa four winters while at college but I never DROVE during them). He just had a cruddy set of luck. And that can happen to anyone. For the moment at least, I have asked Scott to call me when he leaves places and arrives places safely, because otherwise my nerves really do get too taut. That's even if the weather is good.

My staying home if the weather is bad is not that unusual. The question is whether I'll be able to cope if Scott goes to work if the weather is bad, even knowing he has a VERY short commute. That, and if the weather isn't bad but could turn bad - do I go to work? Because if it does turn bad, I'm fairly sure I'd neither have the courage to drive home, nor to let Scott come and pick me up. Bleh! It will get better again, I know that, but it's still so raw. I'm still so stunned and shocked, as well as hurting, and it's that disbelieving "oh yeah, the universe isn't fair, and by the way cars can kill" thing that makes it so hard to be bold.

But not changing my reaction to snow/ice days much. No point risking myself when I can work at home. (I'm not allowed to generally telecommute - they like us in the office, and I understand that - but they are very easy-going about telecommuting in bad weather, thank goodness. I work for good folks.)