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The computer room is still fairly messy but we've opened the door to the cats after getting a few key items off the floor and out of the way. They know how to deal with messy anyway, I just don't want anything precious and easily destroyed down there....
Basta was on my lap drooling madly but eventually hopped down because I lean forward too far to be a comfortable lap when typing on the laptop. She skidded in the pile of detritus at my feet and I promptly felt guilty.... Babe has just been quietly exploring corners and now Basta is joining her.
I'm worried I may have missed something I'll regret later on the floor. But Mom's recipe box, all the photos, the electronic stuff for the camera - all have been moved either up or into the bedroom (temporarily) since they don't go there.
We very badly need to get rid of some clutter. We have needed this since before we moved to this house, and still we have the clutter. Problem is it takes time and effort to get rid of it, shuffling it around is faster...argh!
And I miss my parents terribly. It still doesn't seem entirely believable or real that they are both dead, and have been for over a month, even though I know it is so. In some ways I think the first weeks were easier, as far as not having to juggle practical matters at the same time - or not as many. They were much harder in other ways but I do not think I will have many 'easy' weeks for a while yet, emotionally. Times, yes, but not whole weeks yet. Please understand that if I'm not constantly bemoaning it here, this is at least in part because it would be repetitive - and in part because doing so too much seems to make it worse, without actually providing any more ease when the particular storm is past.
Basta was on my lap drooling madly but eventually hopped down because I lean forward too far to be a comfortable lap when typing on the laptop. She skidded in the pile of detritus at my feet and I promptly felt guilty.... Babe has just been quietly exploring corners and now Basta is joining her.
I'm worried I may have missed something I'll regret later on the floor. But Mom's recipe box, all the photos, the electronic stuff for the camera - all have been moved either up or into the bedroom (temporarily) since they don't go there.
We very badly need to get rid of some clutter. We have needed this since before we moved to this house, and still we have the clutter. Problem is it takes time and effort to get rid of it, shuffling it around is faster...argh!
And I miss my parents terribly. It still doesn't seem entirely believable or real that they are both dead, and have been for over a month, even though I know it is so. In some ways I think the first weeks were easier, as far as not having to juggle practical matters at the same time - or not as many. They were much harder in other ways but I do not think I will have many 'easy' weeks for a while yet, emotionally. Times, yes, but not whole weeks yet. Please understand that if I'm not constantly bemoaning it here, this is at least in part because it would be repetitive - and in part because doing so too much seems to make it worse, without actually providing any more ease when the particular storm is past.
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